It looks like tomorrow is the big day.
I can't believe summer is over already. I wonder when I got to this place in life where 3 months feels more like 3 weeks. I guess this is what our parents are always telling us about. Man, I feel so old saying that, but it's true.
A big part of me is so excited to go back it's almost unbarable. I can't wait to see everyone and get moved into the apartment, and get back to UMHB life. I have truly missed it. But, then there's the inevitable sadness of leaving home. No matter how many times I do it, it gets me every time. I feel like I'm in constant limbo between wanting to be here and there at the same time. I guess thats just what I have to look forward to from now on.
Growing up kinda sucks sometimes.
Aside from the sadness there is also the fear that comes with change. Luckily, a lot of the anxieties from last year aren't there. I now know people, and kind of what to expect from college life.
I guess what scares me most is that when I'm here at home it's so much easier to center myself, to focus on God first and see things clearly. I don't want to get so wrapped up in school and what not that I lose that focus. God is definately continuing the work that He started in me, and I don't want to forget that once I'm back in Belton. I know there is opportunity to grow immensely there. I feel God telling me that now is the time to allow Him to really move and make changes in my life, and to show me new things. I trust Him to do that. The problem is, I don't know if I trust myself to let Him.
It's nice to know, that at the end of the day, it's HIM who started a good work in me, and HIM who will be faithful to complete it. For once, complete lack of control is comforting, not scary.
Philippians 1:6
Well girls, this is it. We made it through the summer. Thanks for sharing a little of what's been goin on in your lives these last few months. (especially you, Delaine. your posts have been inspiring :D haha!!) I can't wait to start this semester with you guys. I just know it's gonna be da besst!!! Love yall :)
